NikkiSpills

faster than fullness, slower than madness, the world melts in my hands all my crystalline memories swallow themselves, hold their deaths close to their chests something lilac went missing from my dreams and now i am replacing it with a million mint leaves i leave my old selves behind constantly and without reason— a viral impulse, thoughtless and impossible to undo do not believe the body: my silver pulse repeatedly renews itself while my golden breath, in its arrogance, reaches toward forever reaches toward forever

i am a soft invisibility, destitute & undone, innocent but hollow like a glass doll repression is an angel and swallowing is easier when you’re asleep an infinite number of times i’ve rewritten my bones & spoken silence to the sky the sky: an eye that doesn’t blink, a portal into dreams it seems to me that wilting is only a sane act if done when the sun’s in hiding

i swallowed a bee and became a hive i swallowed light and became a black hole amputated dreams float around me like balloons my sadness is helium inflating me my sadness is a robot that can only say 3 things i hate you i hate me i hate everything the kaleidoscopic alien inside of me is breathing is taking all my air being a body is stupid and i want the moon for my birthday but it’s so far away but it’s so far away